Feb 19, 2020
It’s been a while since I last wrote anything in these pages; I have to say I have been busy.
Not busy finding a job which I probably should be doing… who am I kidding? I HAVE TO BE DOING THAT! Just THAT!
But I’ll rather be after a stranger who’s eyes I can’t get out of my head. So that is what I have been doing:
Stalking the barista.
“Boarding” hasn’t been easy.
I guess with all the stalking I have neglected the most important thing right now which is finding a place to sleep indefinitely.
Instead, I have been dropping like a fly anywhere I go… it’s embarrassing to say the least.
I’m my worst enemy.
Feb 21, 2020
I have wonderful news. I finally met him. I have talked to him.
I have smelled his hair.
I have lost myself in those eyes…
okay, I’ll stop with the creepiness.
The last time I wrote anything here I was not very positive about life… in general.
Yesterday I went to look for him one last time. I said to myself: “hey, if it’s not meant to be it’s not meant to be and we will move on!!” And so it was meant to be.
I went to a coffee place downtown and found him there, not that I was looking for him at that exact moment. Honestly, I was just trying to steal some coffee cakes from patrons.
He spoke to me first. Frankly, he surprised me because I was not expecting to find him there. Much less for him to notice and speak to me. Why do I doubt myself so much?
We exchanged numbers.
He said he would come visit me.
I can’t wait!